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2008-01-17T19:27:00.000+08:00

-blows away the dust-
haven blogged for ages!! it's a new sem again!
made a lot of frens and had lots of fun the past year.
got myself a few more darlings too! haha..
bad start. missed my tutorial this morning cos i cant wake up.
it's the end of the second week and im alr falling behind the others.
sighs. had been busy with squash ivp the past week and interhall is still going on..
hall 16 squash is into semis!! haha. under my leadership.
pity my team din get into semis for ivp. but the ivp week was totally fun and happening.
a couple was borned out of our squash team and things are starting to get exciting.hee.
anyws.time for squash now!

2007-10-05T15:27:00.000+08:00

the sky seemed to have dimmed some more today.
was a horrible week. lots of things on hand and on my mind.
tuition. law assignment. accounting quiz. messy stuff :x
my mood seems to have dived to the lowest point.
the line that i've treading on all this while seems to be breaking soon..
again..
but lucky i still have people around me to brighten my days.
oh wells..back to my accounting.

2007-05-13T21:19:00.000+08:00

haven blogged for so long. blogger changed the layout. so weird. feel that my words are flying..
exams over for quite some time. took them off my mind for the time being.
taking special sem now. astro. heard from some people it's quite a boring subject.
but feel that it's quite interesting. stars stuff. a bit of physics for the theoretical part.
fortunately physics is part of my interest too.
shijie is working on some of the days so i have to go to lectures alone frequently =(
lucky i like the subject. din fall asleep during the lecture like most people did.
the main thing is the lecturer. has a queer sense of humour. and he looks like aj George!
speaks more or less like him? i dunno.. just funny.
suddenly has lotsa time for myself.
misses all my frens! so far met mich, meow, bao, dawn and some 26/04 people..
i still have alot others i wanna catch up!
feel that this holiday is not long enough..hee..

2007-02-28T21:17:00.000+08:00

seems like this place is completely forgotten.
just like alot of other things in my life.
and also the forgotten emotions.
maybe sometime in my life have i felt like this before..
a sense of guilt, things aren't going as wished though you've tried..
din try hard enough i suppose.
didnt wanna disappoint anyone.
one and half more day..
my gastric isnt helping at all, to add on.
acted up since after dinner.
not in the correct mood for books and words from friends dun seem to help.
the thought of so near yet so far sucks.totally.

2006-10-18T11:18:00.000+08:00

the past is haunting.
i cant escape.
they creep into my mind once there's a chance.
there's just some things cant erase.

2006-09-17T22:41:00.000+08:00

why do u always do things that u dun mean?
why do u always say things that u dun mean?
you are simply not worth it.
i hate u

2006-09-11T15:55:00.000+08:00

so bored going marketing presentation again!
sianzzz...
dunno what to write for my slides.
shijie's groupmates in the room doing the same presentation topic also.
now all the marketing stuff are swimming in my head. -dizzy-
yucks! the weekend sucks.
stayed at home for the whole sat.
and was supposed to have tuition on sun.
reached her house but that stupid girl refused to get out of the bed!
what kind of tutee is this??????
I WAN TO CHANGE TUTEE!!!!!!
luckily your place is near.
and the night made my mood better.. :)
chatting online and the pple are amusing..
hahaha..ended up sleeping at 3.
the eye bags are horrible.
shall go get one sack of cucumbers for my eyes..

2006-09-09T12:24:00.001+08:00

~~confused.~~

2006-09-06T02:06:00.000+08:00

busy day today.
was supposed to meet geral go stats lecture together.
but i cant wake up!!!sorry geral!!
slept at 2 last nite..and realised its 2 alr..hahas..
only went for the econs lecture only cos jac's call woke me up.
haha.all thanks to her.
as usual, it was freezing cold in the lkc.
went for ob tutorial after that.
4 hours of ob!!head was throbbing halfway already..
had lunch after the tutorial at can A.
super hnugry can..took lunch at 430.
rested a while in my room before going for tkd.
shijie pangseh!!! lonely me....
ended up partnering sally and it was a hilarious session.
did two rounds of kicking round the track.
and wow! sally is good.
quite frightened by her kicks actually.
and thought she was too fast for me.
cos i had to move back as she proceed forward to kick.
den think i was too tired.and when she was about to kick i suddenly moved back
and her kick jus froze there.
the scene is so comical..
den she commented she was about to kick but the thing jus pao diao..
hahas..we ended up laughing all the way..
thought it was exceptionally exhuasting today.almost cant catch my breathe.
and my toe skin peeled after the two rounds. :(
had comm meeting after the whole thing.
its like some bonding thingy to get to know everyone.
actually found the people interesting.hahas..
went to jp for dinner together after that
a mass crapping session..
took cab with two other pple back to our halls and it was alr 11 plus!
got on with the marketing presentation following my bath.
and me and jie were damn high..
haha..she's amused by her msn chats..
were playing spot the diff tog jus now and it was super tough can!!!
pic so small difference so not different..haha..
jie's sleeping alr..think i need to go sleep soon too..

2006-09-03T18:04:00.000+08:00

meow crashed our hall on fri night!
she was on the last 179 and we were at the bus stop awaiting her..
hahas.she was so lethargic.but in the end we slept late.
me and jie were cooped up with the hk cafe game.
its like we had to cooked the eggs and sausages and toast the bread for the ever hungry customers!great fun exercising our fingers on the mouse.
hee..meow was obviously amused by me and jie getting so agitated over a game.
unfortunatelt we had to go to bed.
me and meow shared a bed and ended up talking till about 3 before we slept.
was a fun night! :D
meow!come crash more often!
but had a headache the next day.cos had to wake up early to go j8.
hahas.meow that pig said to go off with me but couldnt wake up!!!
so i had to take the super long train trip alone :(
had roti prata at the food court for brunch and it was not bad!
hee.ate the cheese prata too.only 1.50.it's real cheap compared to jalan kayu.
missed jalan kayu prata!michelle!when are we gg to eat prata????
wells.shopped around for a sports bra after that and cant find one that i like.
decided to go to queensway shopping centre!anyone available???!
dun feel like gg back ntu now but im gg bk later..hais..
had to do the presentation alr for marketing.feel so lazy.
and had to meet tkd pple to go for some sports club agm.
dun feel like gg at all!dunno anyone of them at all! :(

2006-09-01T23:02:00.000+08:00

aching all over today from squash.
especially my right arm!!
dun even have the strength to undress.
feel so arm-less..haha..
and the tkd training today.
shifu lined the people with the handmitts and we were supposed to kick them all the way.three whole rounds of handmitts(drumsticks lookalike) kicking.
think i wun dare to eat drumsticks for a while..
was told the tkd committee will be handing over next fri.
was a bit deterred by the thought though.
dun really know anyone in the com.
they dun really look friendly also.. :(
scared i clique with them!!!how??
im an anti-social creature!
hais..

2006-09-01T12:25:00.000+08:00

its funny how people's mood can change so fast.
or rather my mood.
think thats cos i kept repeating my mistakes.
dun hold too high hopes.really.
cos your disappointment will be much much higher den ur hopes.
i really shouldn't ask for anything more now..
and be satisfied.just dun expect anything more from you.
i am happy.cos i should be and i will be..

2006-09-01T11:36:00.000+08:00

im so sleeeeeepy now.
watched vcd till one plus last night.
haha.was eating mac while watching..
its great to stay in hall with shijie! :)
tired.think its due to squash last night.
wasted too much energy crapping with vonne and cao.
HAHAHAHAX.VON! pao ba hai zi!
missed the good old days of squashing.
think i'll join the training every thurs. :)
but it wun be fun without von and cao..

2006-08-30T10:39:00.000+08:00

din know there's people still visiting my blog.
or rather a person.
haha.anyhows.thanks geral!
haven talked to u in a while.
forgotten that i still got u!! :)
next time i go find u u better dun turn me away!
wells.more or less settled with my feelings.
but this time it's real hard to recover.
~~or will i ever?~~
the insecurity sometimes just gobbles me up.
without any assurance i cant function properly i realise.
hahas.hate the crap.~~feel like an ant stuck in the mud.~~
can someone pull me out??

2006-08-28T10:15:00.000+08:00

seriously think there's sth wrong with my blog.
think im just as bad.
first everything just came crumbling down on me before im even prepared.
how am i supposed to know how to deal with it?
i hate it.
hate to be the one always trying to solve problems when there is really no solution.
hate to be the one always brooding over it when everyone else still live their own life.
hate to be the one always trying to change and no one realises and even accused of not making an effort.
hate to be the one always stuck in the dimension of heartache..

2006-01-12T19:20:00.000+08:00

flu!!!again!
im going to be dehydrated soon..
and cough.(cough!)
think i just jinxed myself the other day.
was saying i dun wanna get a cough.
(cough!):(
and i miss you!
how bad can it get..

2006-01-04T12:19:00.000+08:00

lots of things on my mind lately..
think until i headache!
was sick the day before yesterday.
felt horrible..
whole body was wobbly
cant even get up from my bed
lucky im able to recover in time for my bangkok trip.
yeah! :)

2005-10-07T20:55:00.000+08:00

:( what should i do to help you?
know im not of any help.
but i'll support you no matter what yea?
*jue wang de shi hou bu fang qi jiu hui you xi wang*

2005-09-24T18:33:00.000+08:00

got a scare last night.
but lucky it was a false alrm. :)
went swimming early in the morning today.
mm..at least to me its considered early.haha.
though the sun was quite scorching,
it was welcoming and me and jie sure enjoyed ourselves.
but the best is yet to come.
went shopping after that.
ate fried mars though i've never liked the chocolate.
but the chewy feeling is not bad with a generous scoop of ice cream.
ha.i sound like their advertiser.
today's trip was fruitful!
both of us bought
*two hairbands
*two tops
*and a pair of cute slippers
haha~the slippers had a star on it!
although our happiness came about not cheap,
its definitely worth it!
havent been so happy for so long.
thanks shijie dearie!

2005-09-22T19:31:00.000+08:00

someone asked me a question today.
i didnt know how to answer.
and i didnt.
i dont want her to say things i didnt want to hear.
although i already know what she will say.
because this also isnt what i want.
:(

2005-09-18T12:27:00.000+08:00

no mood.
the result is still the same.
i can only hope for the better after prelims.
feel so unwanted.
or its just that the time isnt right.
or its just me.
my problem.
haunting me since a long time ago.
always seem to revive whenever i seem to have gotten rid of it.
it doesnt seem to be within my control.
~~ihm~~

2005-09-18T11:40:00.000+08:00

mian dui zi wo
mao dun nan guo
wu zu cui ruo mi man yi huo
lei shui hua luo
wo cen shuo guo wo xiang zi you

2005-09-18T01:46:00.000+08:00

trying to keep myself awake at this hour.
hais.
but kept being interrupted.
they kept resonating in my mind.
cant help but think of it.
wanted to stop all the stupid wondering but in vain. :(
silly me.
dun feel that they would be reciprocated.
:((

2005-09-15T13:14:00.000+08:00

:(
im at a loss.
can u tell me what should i do with you?
despair.

2005-09-12T14:09:00.000+08:00

today was a lethargic day.
just went j8 to eat cake.
so filling.
thats all for my lunch.
should go pig now.
cant stand it anymore..

to everyone...jiayou for prelims!!!luck!

2005-09-12T14:07:00.000+08:00

:) last night was a happy one.
distance makes the heart grows fonder

2005-09-09T10:41:00.000+08:00

i have never been so right that im always wrong.
haha~ isnt that an paradox?
well..another sleepless noght.
dun understand me.
i thought i knew.
im still hopeful.
but sometimes things just dun go my way.
or is it i din try hard enough?or is it you?
i cant help but wonder.
always doing hopeless things and still hopeful about it.
-shrugs-
are you serious?
dead serious?
i bet im half right most of the time even if u are not.
i hate this entry.

2005-09-08T20:47:00.002+08:00

was so tired this morning.
counld bring myself to wake up.
hais.
but i have to.
consultation with seow.
meow and wendy were there too.
:) the consultation was funny.
just like the one i had with joy tan.
the consultation went past noon and i was starving..
lucky shijie bought me and seow lunch!
haha..you are my saviour!!
though the chicken had so many bones and it was quite hard to eat.
but didnt dare to say out until seow brought it up.
haha~
didnt study much.
it was a sleepy afternoon.
me and shijie went soon and went central.
afterwhich we went thomson to eat roti prata!
long time since i ate,
yum!
but the cheese prata there taste weird.
the plain one is nicer.
we talked quite alot.
gossip and stuff.
and we planned to go out after prelims!
kbox!
haha..seems so faraway still..
shouldnt be thinking of playing now!
studyy!!

2005-09-08T20:47:00.001+08:00

2005-09-02T18:54:00.000+08:00

had the first paper today.gp.
the essay was not too bad.
did the same question that i did before.
hopefully i dun get back the same marks.
haha.
total slacking day today.
the bed looks especially inviting today with the cooling weather.
and i just changed my bedsheet!
haha.
haven been going home so early and doing nothing.
enjoyed the quiet moments alone.

2005-08-24T21:08:00.000+08:00

im the stupidest.
cos i failed.terribly.

2005-08-24T21:01:00.000+08:00

bad hair day.
started out bad.
ended bad.
i just wonder are lame reasons considered as excuses?
but what if those stupid lame reasons are true?
and they really speak of how you feel?
still wrong.
cant believe what my mum said is true.
hate to admit it..
but its true.
utterly disappointing.
not redeemable?
at least thats what i think.
im the one who's not good enough

2005-08-24T11:24:00.000+08:00

how ironic.
so is that supposed to be an insult.
cos i think it doesnt apply to you.
instead it speaks too well what im thinking.

2005-08-06T10:26:00.000+08:00

had a wonderful birthday!
thanks to all my dears..
shijie,meow,mich,bao,xiuyan.wendy,eve,dawn,sook,
becca,yuying,yvonne,gerald,your sister and parents..
and most importantly..YOU!

2005-08-04T20:28:00.000+08:00

forgot to set my alarm yesterday.
was late for school.
ha!my brother was late with me too.
cos im always his alarm clock.
went to mich's house again.
baked more cookies.
played with murfy.
by the way, murfy is a hum sap dog!!
haha..meow's totally appalled by him touching her legs.
so amusing..
ate alot of cookies..
my god.i can feel the weight weighing down on me..
but its fun decorating the cookies with pink icing!
all the shit and hearts and stars.
actually was quite upset by some little things recently.
the seemingly indifference attitude just makes me think a lot.
know thats that the original intention but still..
well..i should be able to forget it soon.
cos... nothing else matters.

2005-08-03T23:26:00.000+08:00

tired.
legs are feeling damn tired now.
so suan!!
should sleep early today.
like now.
imissyou

2005-08-01T16:45:00.000+08:00

mm..quite a boring day today.
as usual, think time flies.
only one important thing happened today.
and that is meow bully me!
can u believe she's so mean to me???
actually shoo me to another table during break.
piang...can u hear my heart break??
haha..and anws

happy birthday wendy!

2005-07-30T21:32:00.000+08:00

howhowhow??????!!!!!!!
i dun feel like studying.. :(
did one question,slack one hour..
how to study like that..
hais..
think home is not a good place to study..
who wants to study with me????
shall get out of this place of temptations.
tmr.tmr shall be the day..
hahaha.

2005-07-30T10:58:00.000+08:00

ahaha.am supposed to wake up early to do my stuff today since i slept early last night.
but my sleepiness failed me.
actually i dun mind continuing sleeping now.haha~
today's gonna be a boring day.
homework day. :(
shall try to finiah alll of them and enjoy myself at chuchu's house tmr!
yeah!

2005-07-29T17:39:00.000+08:00

time flies.
its already the end of the week.
went j8 with mich,meow and wendy.
in the end meow abandoned us for her fren.
so mean!!!! haha..MEOW!mean lion..
mm..went secret recipe after having a light lunch.
wanted to eat cheescake but the student's offer doesnt offer much.
ended up with chocolate cake and brownie wih ice cream for mich.
quite worth it cos the choco cake is super huge!
we had to stuff them down.
and all this conversation about the shit..
haha..wad a thing to tlk about when we are eating chocolate.
shopped almost the whole of j8 and got some idea for birthday present for wendy.
bought a cute purse at mu-ee with wings.
haha..hope my money doesnt fly away..ha.
actually had a bad morning from last night.
but thank god things brighten towards the end of the day. :)
dunno how to express what im feeling now.
but maybe just relieved.

2005-07-28T20:52:00.000+08:00

i can only feel the pain.
but its good.
makes me feel.
at least im feeling something..
but please stop plaguing me..

2005-07-28T20:46:00.000+08:00

ihm.they are sore.im lousy.can you tell me how to stop them?cos i really dunno..

2005-07-25T20:34:00.000+08:00

i hate cramps.
and there's pe tmr!!!
what the..
loathe cramping days..
cos thats when i pms too.
everything just gets on my nerves.
and nobody cares.

2005-07-25T20:10:00.000+08:00

whats the goddamn problem with me???
pmsing?
whatever.

2005-07-25T19:58:00.001+08:00

no one wants to talk to me.
except those whom i'll be irritated talking to.
oh wells..
like i need to talk!
:x

2005-07-25T19:45:00.000+08:00

hais.
can you stop getting on my back.
whats wrong with all of them?
just shut up.
had fried rice for dinner.
ate so much.haha.
i suddenly feel like eating alot..
used to do that all the time.
but sometimes what people say really affects you.
though with no real mean intention,
it creates an impact.
oh wells...
nothing i can do.

:l

2005-07-25T17:44:00.000+08:00

:) new layout.
dun feel like doing my work anymore.
dunno how to do maths.
sickening.
qt a boring day.
time seemed to fly today.
dun feel as if its in the late afternoon already.
anyhows..
to my dear..cheer up!the sun is still shining for you and i still love you as much.so dun think about those pollutants anymore! :)